Akenu's Initiation

 I've devised the following plan for the elemental working: Each week I will focus on a single element, in the following order: Fire Air Water Earth Akasha I've chosen this particular order as: Air naturally divides Fire and Water; Earth is the encompassing element of all three, and Akasha is the final element: the source of the other 4. My devised plan for the practice: Gnostic pentagram ritual with the elemental pentagram of the week (invocation in the morning, banishing during the evening) Trataka with the tattva of the element of the week Accumulation and release of the element Visualization of the tattva whenever the time permits So, on Monday I will start with the first element in the cycle: Fire. This is the tattva I will use for trataka and visualization:

This is a part tutorial and part rant about one of the early steps of Bardon's IIH, so brace yourself. Before we begin, let me give you two very simple methods of quieting your mind, so you can taste what it feels like to have no thoughts. "Taste" is definitely a pun for the first method. Easy method of quieting your mind Try this. Stick your tongue out and grab it between your index finger and thumb; now pull it out a little. Your mental chatter should disappear; isn't that cool? Well, if you are an inner-monologue type of person, that is. If your thought process is visual instead of auditory. This didn't do anything for you. The reason is that auditory thinkers do move their tongues a tiny bit while thinking. This method stiffens the tongue and makes these microscopic movements way harder. Don't worry, you will appreciate the second method a bit more. Visual method of quieting your mind Now relax and close your eyes. Imagine a completely empty white room. Th...

 While working on my trataka practice, I've decided to add a bit of a color to the after image. This is what the focus image looks like: And this is what the afterimage should look like: From my personal experience, the colors are a bit paler during the afterimage focus, and eg the red outline is not visible, at all.

 Today, during meditation, I had a vision of two similar symbols. One of them looks pretty much like the Ingwaz rune. Ingwaz rune seems to be related to inner development. Not entirely sure what the other symbol is from, but it seems familiar.

Yup, it's me 😂

 I've recently recalled the symbol of balance. A simple pantacle I came up with a long time ago while messing with trataka meditation. This symbol contains two interlocked triangles, referring to the "As Above, so Below", as well as the unicorsal hexagram, two pentagrams (one upright, one upside down), and 4 alchemical symbols of elements. This has been a symbol of my MHP (middle hand path) for a while, but I somehow forgot it when I moved on to Chaos Magick. Today I've remembered it after years, so I have remade the symbol and used it for trataka again. Now it seems my astral sight has improved quite a bit, I will definitely keep going with it.