New year, new design

New year brings a couple of changes and news.

First of all, you might have noticed the new layout and design of this blog, I hope you will like this minimalistic approach. It's probably the last of this year's changes, starting with the removal of all ads and ending with the integrated Twitter account.

As of 2015, I am currently working on a Sumerian spellbook and when that is finished, I will start writing a book about sigils. What topic will I pick after these two books are finished is still unknown, if you wish, you can give me your suggestions in comments or via e-mail or twitter.

Let's return to the design changes of the blog. I personally still think this solution is not perfect and during the next year I want to finally finish my own Content Management System and run a separate site, that will work not only as a blog, but also as a nicely categorized article storage, course in Magick for registered users (including their own blogs for them) and as a sort of a site where practitioners can meet and exchange their experiences (less forum-like, more group-like).

Speaking of forums I recently found a great forum named Wizard Forums, this forum can be located here: http://wizardforums.com/member.php?action=register&referrer=5799

So, I wish to all of you to safely survive the New Year celebrations, drink responsibly, keep loyal to your practices and have some fun during the process :).

About atheism

What is an atheism?
Based on the definition atheism is a belief that there is no god, but generally this belief states there is nothing paranormal, everything that exists can be observed, measured and reproduced. [1]

Pros of atheism
Atheism gives a very good and solid logical foundation based on research and experimentation. It also states how to use a cold logic where most people would let themselves be deceived by the heart.

Cons of atheism
Atheism, as any other belief, states itself as the ultimate truth (or at least through the mouths of many dogmatic atheists found on the internet, this of course doesn't apply to everyone), so there is a great factor of ridiculing other beliefs.

Proof based thinking
An average internet atheist will tell you that there is no God as there is no proof for one and if we want to prove there is something more, we have to provide evidence for it.  Atheism didn't provide any evidence that there is nothing outside this world, but they are right the weight of evidence lies on those who claim something exists, not the opposite. The sad part is that our evidence is either ridiculed or stolen.

To give you an example outside the common "scientists showing data regarding parapsychology are discredited", let's take a look at placebo, as placebo comes from our practices. This effect was firstly ridiculed as a total nonsense, just later when people found out that placebo really works, they officially adopted it, then there started claiming our practices are just a placebo.

There is no thing as "just a placebo" The placebo is a very strong effect [4] and while many of our practices rely on it, we can still be proud for using it effectively (and for discovering it first). It shows how strong the power of the mind over matter is. It also shows how many vaccines were "just a placebo" in the past. Vaccination nowadays is used in comparison with placebo to assure there are some real effects just beyond the placebo effect. [4]

"Gold"-en opportunity
Gold is a very amazing metal, every alchemist will agree with me. In the "ancient" past this metal was used by us for curing many illnesses (usually taken per-orally). Funnily enough, science has found this method is quite working, they just avoid it for side effects of the metal poisoning, but what is the most interesting part?

Science found that golden mixture is more effective via an injection into muscles instead of receiving it by the standard way. The joke is no one knows why this is working, no one exactly knows what could a gold do to cure anything. [2]

Gold has an amazing charge that cannot be measured by mundane means, and Magicians using gold for healing, usually charge the gold even more, beyond its standard property, that's why the gold was always so respected among healers, even when taken in the less effective way (by swallowing).

The tea way
Many of us can attest for great benefits when it comes to drinking a green tea. We all know that green tea is healthy and by drinking it our sicknesses have much smoother progression and we feel healthy much sooner. Unfortunately once again we do not know what a green tea actually does or how, 

simply because it doesn't contain any active substance that would be responsible for strenghtening the immunity system, there is literally no curing factor when it comes to the physical contents of the green tea, yet we all are pretty sure it works. [3]

Power of new belief
Of course the rise of atheism created a new worshiping on its own, science. Whatever is science is true and whatever is outside science is false. This does indeed have some positive effects, for example you take your painkillers and your headache is gone in matter of minutes (sometimes even seconds), even when the drug itself will start having any real effect in about 20 to 30 minutes. [4] But you know what? That's great. It's great that a modern medicine is so trusted that placebo effect actively helps with the healing process, we as occultists love it :).

Problem arises when we use placebo (or anything that could be labeled as one). For example when a former pope blessed a nun with Parkinson that got magically cured [6] (these are called miracles in the church). Many people reacted to this as it was "just a placebo". Well, it's true that Parkinson's disease is psychosomatic in its base so it is very effectively cured with placebo, but whether this miracle was caused by placebo or not, it prove that we are more effective at it. We do not need to give you fake pills (made of sugar) or give you drugs that will start working after the actual effect already took place. We can use placebo with greater effects just with the use of words, gestures, and a good deal of faith (in anything one would or could believe).

Dark side of science

Magick and generally occultism has a very bad credit due to the great amount of charlatans hiding in our communities, based on them we all are judged. The thing is that science has charlatans, too and there are as many of them as in occultism [5]. If you don't believe me, think about how much money goes into research regarding green energy, recycling, bendable phones... despite the fact that there are other underfunded fields of science that would put the money into greater use, than a paper plate that can fall apart in the environment and a plant will grow out of it. Now I am not speaking about parapsychology, seriously people, let occult alone, it is happy where it is. Money should focus more on the research of our universe and new ways of producing energy without current mainstream dogmatic beliefs about "green", using mercury for solar panels and "green" light-bulbs is not green at all.

Many people believe, that science turned into pseudo-science with the arrival of Drake's equation [5].

[1] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atheism
[2] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gold#Medicine
[3] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Green_tea
[4] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Placebo
[5] http://wattsupwiththat.com/2010/07/09/aliens-cause-global-warming-a-caltech-lecture-by-michael-crichton/
[6] http://www.nydailynews.com/news/world/miracle-nun-john-paul-healed-parkinson-disease-article-1.1769668

What's new

Well, a lot of stuff, actually. First of all I am happy I published the first part of the book about tarot. Firstly because I have some recent achievement in terms of publications and secondly I can start writing something else and get back to it when in mood.

Also in two days my vacation starts and because I have been slacking physically for a few months now, I plan to be very hard at myself for next 3 weeks (my vacation time) and get solidly ripped. In the mean time I also want to start working on some other book, either a Sumerian spellbook or a book about sigil magick (specify in comments if you care).

I am also working on an essay about atheism and why it is a belief like anything else (might take some time before I publish it, I want to make it as clear as possible).

I am not also going to publish the first level of my game as I promised earlier this year, simply because my computer is too old to handle the graphics and the development is too slow because of that (I am going to buy a better PC next year).

Spiritual protection

Introduction
Spiritual protection is an important act in the occult, both against malevolent spirits and attacks of other occultists. Unfortunately it is one aspect of the art which isn't described sufficiently for young minds. This then causes a lot of suffering in the case of an actual problem or a lot of confusion regarding analytical overlay.

Some methods I will describe below are general, these can be done by anyone, some are related to my path and spirits I serve. I cannot force into my path but let me tell you that my spirits are very kind and absolutely ok even for beginners. Their biggest benefit is that they are paid by your energy whenever you use them so you don't have to mess around with offerings. They will take what is theirs and they will leave the rest alone. These spirits are a mix of Sumerian, Assyrian, Akkadian and Babylonian deities (for obvious historical reasons).

Prevention
Prevention is an important aspect of protection, keeping your natural defenses high helps to repel attacks, but what I am going to offer to you is not just for some protection, it's a basic hygiene of a Magician and by following it you can access better health, less need for sleep, no stress and a clarity of mind. Some people say a prolonged lifetime as well, but I never present effects I cannot see myself and speaking about slowed aging at the age of 27 seems weird to me.

First of all you should start your day with morning gymnastic, making your body strong and flexible should be one of the key tasks for a Magician.

Secondly, a meditation at least once a day is a good practice to get rid of a stress and power up your immunity system. For this purpose I do recommend a progressive muscular relaxation. Many will know this from my book Magickal Curriculum or from countless studies about psychology, so just a quick sumary:

You sit down in a comfortable position and one by one, you stress each of your muscles as hard as you can for a period of 5 seconds and then you relax your muscle, you continue this till your whole body is relaxed, you will know when this happens as your whole body will feel very warm and pleasing, then you concentrate on this warmth for about 5 or 10 minutes.

Next exercise I always recommend is the Sacred Chamber Ritual. I cannot stress enough how important this exercise is, keeping you concentrated, centered, grounded, cleansing you on a number of levels plus training your visualization skills, these all effects turn this exercise into a Swiss knife of a Magician.

I also recommend to call for the spirits whenever there is some free time for it, this is a part of my own work but I think anyone can benefit from it. The incantation is as follows:
ZI ANNA KANPA
ZI KIA KANPA
ZI DINGIR ANNA KANPA
ZI DINGIR KIA KANPA

Remember, these spirits are very kind and always helpful.

Cleansing
Cleansing should be another part of the daily routine, Sacred Chamber Ritual helps with that, but you must also remember to keep certain practices during your mundane life.

Whenever you wash your hands, keep your hands under the water a little bit longer and during that visualize as the water is taking away everything negative from your, cleansing your body, mind, spirit and soul on many levels.

Cleansing also comes through introspection and retrospection, always keep that in mind and progressively review your actions during the day and make also a final review each evening.

Protection against spirits
Our arts do attract malevolent spirits from time to time, that's why it is so important to stay protected. LBPR doesn't work the way one would expect and in the end, it's always results that count. Sacred Chamber Ritual will help, but to be truly protected, it is enough to call BANMASKIM in all cardinal directions and all spirit problems will disappear

.

You can also call BANRABISHU first (once again in all cardinal directions) to banish the feelings of anger, anxiety, fear, any negativity that might annoy you at the time.

Protection against another occultist
Sometimes we are attacked, there is no helping it. The reason can be something we did before or analytical overlay of the attacker, who then thinks we attacked when we didn't. But when it comes to protection we do not want to jsu counter-attack, maybe we are those who would attack first thanks to our own over-analysis of the situation.

For this purpose there is a very potent spirit named TUKU, I will describe more about this spirit later, but he basically just get you rid of the problem when there is a problem and the way he does so is to assure no further attacks, going the path of the least resistance. Later I will describe the whole ritual of invoking TUKU.

Protection for others
Above I have described protection for those who will want to jump into the work with spirits I prefer, but what if you don't want to work with same spirits I do or if you don't work with spirits at all? Here is a method that prove useful in the path, with as detailed description as I can think of, what I am going to describe you is a bit modified version of a standard shielding technique, I will describe all benefits later.

First of all, during the building of the shield we have to choose a texture. I have personally chosen a crystallic structure as crystals are naturally associated with telepathy, plus the sharp crystals on the outside give an enhanced feeling of safety.

Once you are relaxed (progressive muscular relaxation), you start with building your shield, slowly from below your feet you go up in a sort of egg-ish shape, till your body is hidden within the shell, take as much time as you need, the whole process usually take about 40 minutes.

Once your shell is build, you then visualize that with each breath your shell becomes thicker and thicker and more sharp points appear on the outside while in the inside the surface is nice and smooth, looking like a thick ice.

When you are finished, extend your hand and try to touch your shell, you should be able to feel it very clearly.

Many can understand that 40 minutes is a lot of a time for an immediate attack, those who read my books will know a technique called a spell creation. Once your shield is finished, you then associate a gesture and a word with it and you use a following affirmation: "Whenever I use this gesture and my word of power [something], I wish to be protected my shield in its fullest form and fullest power available".

Then, next time you wish to use the shield, you simply do your gesture, say your word and then while still holding your gesture, you take few deep breaths, and voila, your shield is back and ready. During these inhales you can also visualize your shield getting thicker and thicker and more sharp on the outside to strenghten it even further.

More information about Tuku

TUKU:

Lord of Baneful Magick, Vanquisher of the Ancient Ones by Magick, giver

of the Spell to MARDUK KURIOS, a most fierce enemy. His Word is

MASHSHAMMASHTI.

There are times when we feel that someone else may be praticing magick

against us. The feeling is hard to describe to anyone else, but we know

it when it happens. If you are certain that magick is being used

against you, that a spell has been cast or a curse sent in your

direction, then the name and seal of this spirit will repel the

evildoer as surely as if Archangel Michael had been summoned to rout

Lucifer from Heaven. A most potent protection device. 

Information about the invocation as described in Necronomicon's Spellbook:

Step One

Once you have found the spell you wish to use from the following seals

and descriptions, make a copy of the seal on fresh, clean paper with

black ink. You make the seal as large or small as you wish. Keep it in

a safe place until you are ready to use it, and never, under any

circumstances, let another person look at it, before or after you use

it. It is for your eyes only.

Step Two

Choose a quiet evening and a place where you will not be disturbed for

your ritual. The best time is about three in the morning, when

distractions (both natural and psychic) are at their lowest intensity.

Have your seal ready in front of you. Light two white candles and place

them at either side of the seal on a table or desk. If you care to,

light a stick of incense. Pine or sandalwood is best, or cedar. The

Moon should be waxing, but in cases of emergency this is not necessary.

Any time will do. When this has all been arranged, sit quietly for a

few minutes and think about the goal you want to achieve.

Step Three

While looking intently at the seal you have made, so that it is the

only thing you can see, take three deep breaths, slowly, one at a time.

Concentrate on the goal at the same time, seeing it as a picture if

possible. A picture of yourself sitting in a pile of cash, or with your

arms around a loved one, or withing a protective circle. Then, slowly

raise your eyes, without lifting your head, to the heavens and say,

slowly and clearly:

ZI KIA KANPA (Zee-Kee-Ya-Kan-Pa)

ZI ANNA KANPA (Zee-An-Na-Kan-Pa)

ZI DINGIR KIA KANPA (Zee-Deen-Geer-Kee-Ya-Kan-Pa)

ZI DINGIR ANNA KANPA (Zee-Deen-Geer-An-Na-Kan-Pa)

Hear me, O Thou_________________ (here insert the Name of the Spirit

you are invoking)

Come to Me by the Powers of the Word_________________ (here insert the

word of the Spirit you are invoking)

And answer my urgent prayer!

ZI KIA KANPA

ZI ANNA KANPA

Step Four

Then slowly lower your eyes back to the seal in front of you and stare

intently at the drawing, at the same time forming a clear mental image

of the end you are trying to achieve. Do not pay any attention to any

strange or eerie feelings you may experience at this point. They are

common with this type of ritual and are no cause for alarm. It is

important that you do not break concentration for any purpose

whatsoever, so ignore the odd sounds and sensations that might

accompany the performance of any of these rituals. They are simply the

weak attempts of enevolved psychic entities trying to disrupt your

ritual. They are not worthy of your attention.

Step Five

When you have passed a few moments this way, and you feel your

concentration beginning to wane, then close the ritual with the

following prayer:

ZI DINGIR KIA KANPA (Zee-Deen-Geer-Kee-Ya-Kan-Pa)

ZI DINGIR ANNA KANPA (Zee-Deen-Geer-An-Na-Kan-Pa)

Spirit of the Earth, Remember! Spirit of the Sky, Remember!

Take three more deep breaths, then stand up (if you have been sitting),

and walk a few steps around the room looking at all the objects that

might be there: furniture, pictures, etc. and touch a few of these

objects. This serves two purposes, one: it helps to solidify your

astral body if the preceding ritual has caused it to become overly

sensitive to passing vibrations, making it weak and vulnerable, and

two: it distracts the conscious mind from the basically unconscious

process that the ritual has just begun. Now, return to the table on

which your seal has been placed.

Step Six

Take the seal you have just made and cover it, or turn it over, or put

it away somewhere where no one will see it. The seal has been charged,

in a subtle way, and now can no longer be used for any other purpose

except what it was consecrated to do in your ritual. You must not use

the same seal twice for different goals, although you may use it twice

for the same goal, in case you wish to repeat your ritual the following

night. It is best not to repeat it for more than three consecutive

nights for reasons it would be too complicated to explain here.

Extinguish the candles and place them where you will find them easily

for your next ritual. They can be used again for any ritual, but must

never be used for simply lighting the room. Once used in a ritual from

the NECRONOMICON, they can be used for no other purpose save a similar

ritual from the NECRONOMICON. Do not use these candles for other

rituals (that is, from other spellbooks) or for any mundane purpose.

You must take these rituals quite seriously, and treat the tools you

use in a ritual with the same respect a carpenter has for his saw and

hammer, or a plumber for his wrench or a priest for his Bible. In a

way, by using these rituals, you have become a kind of priest or

priestess yourself for you have joined a select order of initiates that

has been practicing these and similar mystical rituals since the

beginning of recorded history.

Step Seven (optional)

Most of our readers and students have found it enormously valuable to

keep a written record of all rituals they perform, so that they can

easily assess what their results are by using any particular ritual or

spell. They can gauge how long it will take for a certain spell to

work, and also they can refresh their memory in the future with

accounts of all the successes they have enjoyed through using the

NECRONOMICON. The first time a spell works, you may want to believe

itÕs only a coincidence. But later, as time goes by and more and more

of your spells are working, with phenomenal results, it's good to go

back and look through your magickal diary to see just how wrong you

were about coincidence and to prove to yourself once and for all that,

yes, magick does work!

BEFORE YOU go straight to the Names, a few words of information. 

New book available

New book called Liber Azag: The Book of Tarot is available now:
https://www.scribd.com/doc/249362204/Liber-Azag-The-Book-of-Tarot

New blog

I have recently discovered a new blog about Magick, necromancy and a new practice in general. I have to say that so far I liked what I saw so I wanted to share this with all of you:

araigneearcane.wordpress.com

Cuneiform

A quick and beautiful presentation of writing in cuneiform:

Koetting's arrest: continuation

Some time ago I have published a post regarding Koetting's arrest. Recently Koetting himself has posted this video with explanations.

Kind of funny

Well, a bit funny thing has happened to me a few minutes ago.

I was in garage with my wife, taking a cigarette chat. After few cigarettes I asked whether we locked the door upstairs as we have a very over-active child so it won't run outside. A following conversation was really funny

W (Wife): Yes, I had to go upstairs again so I locked the door.
A (Me): Wait, you went upstairs?
W: Yes, I had to take the jacket, I was cold
A: You mean, like now?
W: Yes, you don't remember?
A: No, I don't remember.
W: You were kinda unresponsive.
A: So wait, I was like standing at one place, gazing in open space?
W: Yes.
A: And you went away:
W: I asked you a question, then I went away, took a jacket and got back and sat down.
A: And I was still on the same place?
W: Yes.

So, ladies and gentlemen, I was thinking about Shazu at the moment and I got possessed :D. Damn, this is great :).

E. A. Koetting arrested

So, for now this looks like the real deal, E. A. Koetting, author of Become a Living God was arrested.
More info here: http://www.thespectrum.com/story/news/local/2014/11/18/task-force-arrests-roommates-drug-charges/19248063/

No sleep again

This is slowly becoming strange. Once again I am sitting in the bus heading to the office without any prior sleep.

It is very hard for me to fall asleep before 3am, I am just too energized to sleep. Even when I am going without sleep for more days and I get quite tired in the afternoon, once I get home all signs of tiredness simply disappear.

I doubt my new altar would be the reason as these problems arrived before I bought it. What I remember happening somewhat before this was an extended period of working with Necronomicon spirits. I remember that in Necronomicon spellbook (second book edited by Simon) it says that the best time for rituals is 3am for it being the most calm time when it comes to mundane or spiritual activity.

To rule out other influences I stopped drinking coffee a couple of weeks ago but this problem wasn't reduced at all, in fact I can be fully awake for days without coffee or any caffeine based drink, I also don't use much sugars (I don't sweeten my fruit teas or anything else I drink).

My original problem of my body aching and my mind being slow without sleep also disappeared after necronomicon workings. I really can't tell right now if this is the main reason for this happening, but for now it seems very likely.

Mandala template available

So, I guess the second prototype of the template is good enough for sharing, so if you want to try it out yourself, just download the template here:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0ByGAi4hoZRlwYVNnVU14Q3pLQkk/view?usp=sharing

The usage is simple, you just take the printed template and place another page on it, you can see the guidelines through the page so you can use them to draw your mandala symmetrically.

Second mandala template prototype.

Based on experiences with using the first prototype I made a second version, and this one looks pretty good.

Mandalas made by my wife

So, my wife also tried using the template to make mandalas and I have to say her results were amazing. It was also the very first time she managed to get to the meditative state when drawing mandalas

Few mandalas

Here are few testing mandalas plus also a reveal on how to draw these without rulers and compasses (for now it seems that the center is the weak spot, more tweaks will be needed)

The best

Yesterday I figured a way to create a perfectly symmetric mandala without the need to use rulers, compasses, and stuff like that, purely by free hand.

Today I tested it and it looks amazing. I will do some more tests and then I will send pictures and also a little how-to so you can start making amazing mandalas right away!

Amazing news

I don't know if you remember, but some times ago I have described my communications with Shazu and that I was given a vision of a circle to be used for the evocations.

No matter how hard I tried I couldn't remember the whole thing, which actually made the whole conversation a big loss of time on both my side and Shazu's side.

I am happy to say that on one forum I visit there was a link to the German book no one there could read, so I took a peek and found out it's Maqlu text, which is contained within Simon's Necronomicon. So I was looking for a Necronomicon and found this:

http://www.edu.mec.gub.uy/biblioteca_digital/libros/a/Al%20Azif%20-%20Necromonicon%20%5Benglish%5D.pdf

The whole book is a bit cheesy and looks fictional, but that evocation circle that is there is exactly the one I have seen in the vision.

About suicide

The topic of suicide has appeared on the number of occult forums I frequently visit so I decided to write something about the topic from both mundane and occult sense. Suicide can be defined as a voluntary end of one's own existence, before we talk about the implications of such act, let's make a quick overview of common reasons.

Reasons for suicide
Most common reason is depression, the person thinks that no one loves him/her, no one cares for him/her, this is actually quite common for teenagers. The social background doesn't matter in this case, whether parents are abusive or careless or whether family is rich or poor, this case can still appear.

Another reason (often mixed with the first one) is that people believe they are worthless, that they have no value in the society, no reason for living, this is also a form of depression.

Another common reason is pain, a horrible, persistent, unbearable pain. Pain that cannot be stopped and often immobilizes the person, making him/her believe to be a burden for family which has to care about this person.

Yet another reason was cultural, suicide to make a statement, usually by self-burning or cutting one's wrist. Tibetan monks are known to commit the burning suicide. In Europe there was a fashion called Emo, that often commited the suicide by the wrist cutting because "no one understood them", this represented a cult like mentality and fortunately this subculture came out of fashion and was significantly reduced.

The act
The whole act of the suicide is a very painful procedure, usually persisting of initial act of courage which cannot be taken back no matter what. What I am talking about is that one step from the building or the sliced open wrist. Victim of this act often changes the decision to commit the suicide but it's too late for it. Once you are falling down the building, once you are set afire, once your blood started flowing from your veins, there is very little you can do to stop it.

Many people who survived their suicide attempt were happy they didn't die, during the attempt they realised was a big mistake. These cases are actually reported, so some google search might give you more information.

Implication of suicide from mundane sense
We all have problems, that's how it works. But no matter how unloved, unappreciated or worthless you feel, there is always someone who cares for you and by ending your own life, you will make them suffer. Suicide is actually the most mean and selfish act you can commit, it's the most cruel thing you can do to people who care about you, and trust me, there is always someone.

If your condition makes you be dependable on others, whether your family or your partners, your death won't lift the burden, it will actually increase it. These people take care of you because their love you and your end will hurt them in the most horrible way.

Being worthless is a state of mind, not a fact. We all make bad decisions and these decisions form what we are, but past isn't the creator of future. In future you can be what you want, in future you can achieve anything and mean a lot for many people, maybe even for whole nations. The key to success lies in presence. If you stop with the self-pity and stand up, you can achieve anything you want, you just have to do something for it. Remember, the key lies in what you do right now, at this very moment, shape your future.

Suicide from the occult perspective
First of all I want to make a little spoiler for sensitive people, this is where it gets nasty, so you should probably stop reading right about now.

If, from the mundane perspective there is a belief all troubles end, it's the exact opposite in occult/mystical point of view. With a suicide all the horror actually begins, and much bigger than whatever problems you think you had. So, what exactly happens after a successful suicide?

First of all the link between the body, the spirit and the soul will sever due to the damage you did to the body. This cannot be taken back, remember that. Next part is where you get a lot of new "friends". Astral larvae you created via the suicide, also phantoms of spirits, some lower entities and few more stuff. They all will leech you and make you suffer in the most horrible ways for ethernity. Pain you would never believe is possible, depression worst than ever, also a fear and an inability to do something about it.

Some people will find a way to reduce these problems, by attaching those who loved them during their lives and feeding on their depressions and crying, becoming phantoms or ghouls, leeching energy from their lovers, that will be the only thing that will help them to reduce their own suffering. But the cry for someone doesn't last forever and this possibility will also fade in time, leaving just the horrors, forever, with no way out and no one to help you.

What to do if someone can possibly commit a suicide
If you are suspicious about someone having thoughts about suicide, don't just stand back, speak with the person and make them know you care about them, there are also suicide lines everywhere, find one closest to you and discuss this topic with them, describe what your friend does and how he acts and they will know what to do. Do everything you can to stop this from happening, after all, you can save someone's life, both physical and metaphysical.

Progression with IIH

First of all, I shouldn't speak too much about it, so let me see how cryptic I can get...

I think I have already forgotten how many bad "qualities" I have. My black mirror is nearly finished, most negative stuff is sorted in elemental columns and now I am going for the 3 column separation for each element.

I also do the physical exercises mentioned in IIH step I on regular basis and my body already feels much better, it seems that now I am able to regulate my body temperature more easily.

Progress with Lugalanna

Yesterday I had to omit the ritual as I was becoming too tired.

Anyway, I think that Lugalanna has already shown me my True Will. I have done some re-checking and found out there are abilities I have lost. For example I am no longer able to make myself hear the sound of a bell without seeing the bell in my mind's eye. Considering the amount of stuff I lost I restarted my practice with Initiation Into Hermetics (so I am at the step I, now).

Also, I finally made some time and changed the payment settings for my books, so all of my books are completely free now (including Magickal Curriculum AND Astro Magick Essentials).

Nostalgia

This is something I have said on one forum about 2 years ago and recently I found it during skimming some threads.

performing magick is like riding on a horse. We can even make an analogy of training to domestication of the ridden horse.
IIH teaches you how to ride the horse and how to domesticate the horse before actual ride.
Performing Magick without training is like trying to hop on a wild mustang without any previous training. You will certainly get somewhere. Question is where and in what state.
Abramelin's Magick is like taking some time to gather best horse sellers and acquire best horses from them for your purposes and Enochian Magick is like paying a bunch of guys to guard you during your ride while they are leashing and manipulating the horse.

Lugalanna, AP

Yesterday I did an invocation of LUGALANNA, spirit that suppossedly is able to help you find your True Will and also boost your Magickal abilities. It was also the first time I have used my altar for a ritual.

I will continue with invocations till Friday to see if anything will happen.

Yesterday I also tried AP, but with not much luck is it was really late and I had to sleep (I overslept, anyway). Two days ago I got to the point of the vibration, but got too excited about it and it stopped.

I have also noticed my problem with the breathing being stopped during projecting reappeared. Now I solve it simply by taking a deep breath-in and breath-out.

About empathy and the use in the occult

General description
Empathy is an ability to feel into another person, to get the first hand experience on how the person feels, what are the problems of the person, etc. Empathy is a part of our survival programming, it helps to connect people into groups, hence assuring the protection of the mass.

Now it can seem hard to understand what are the implications in the occult terms, but rest assured that what is above is below and that everything mundane has metaphysical part, as well, and the subtle version of empathy is one of the finest and most useful.

The new level of empathy
Have you ever attended some martial arts training? Or some sort of traing where an exact execution of the movement was required? Things like martial arts, gymnastics, dance, require us to learn complicated movements. Now what if I told you you can learn these movements much faster by using empathy?

Every movement is associated with a set of feelings. If you are able to feel into the teacher, if you are able to grasp the feeling teacher has during performing some movement, it will be much easier to learn the move if you replicate the feeling. Take it as a form you set for yourself and do the move to fill this form. With this simple trick you will be a master in no time.

This of course works also the other way round? Are you able to do a cartwheel in just one direction? To just one side? Flip the feeling you have during the cartwheel to the other side and then replicate it. Chances are you will do a perfect cartwheel on the first try.

Connection
This is the most useful technique, especially considering the modern world. Today people often do not know each other personally, chances also are they live far from each other but are still in contact thanks to the fruits of the information age. If you want to affect such a person through occult means, and all you have is his account name on the forum, all you have to do is to use empathy.

Whoever we communicate with creates a metaphysical link between us. On the emotional level it is the feeling you have when you interact with this person. Once you notice this unique feeling, you will know what I am talking about. Now, if you activate this feeling by thinking about recent interactions with the person, then you can concentrate on the feeling directly during your workings to affect the person in question.

You can also create a sigil for the person and through dedicated concentration in the state of trance you can bind this feeling to the symbol, giving you an easier access to your "target". Many people find it easier to focus on the sigil than on the feeling, so this is your ticket to transform one to the other.

New altar

So, I have decided to buy a new altar (I actually needed one for quite some time now) And this one got in my way.

Tarot: The Celtic Cross spread

This is the little excerpt from the book about Tarot I am currently working on, enjoy :).

The Celtic Cross

The most famous of all spreads, unfortunately also the most overused one. The Celtic Cross is a common-use spread, if you don't know what spread to use for the reading, use this one. This spread has qualities of many aforementioned spreads, plus it shows many tendencies we want to use or avoid. Unfortunately it also contains a great deal of relations between different card positions which normally isn't well taught. That's why I will teach you this spread traditionally, as I was taught.

For this spread you need to select   10 cards. Meanings of these cards are as follows:

Card 1: That's it

Card 2: That crosses it

Card 3: That's the crown of it

Card 4: That's the base of it

Card 5: That was before it

Card 6: That comes after it

Card 7: That's the querrent

Card 8: That's where it takes place

Card 9: Those are hopes and doubts.

Card 10: This is the result, This is where it leads to.

This explanation might look a bit confusing, but it's the one I started with and it's also probably the only one that shows the basic relations of cards to the card 1 (hence the bold it word). But let's give some a bit more extensive explanation now.

Card 1 shows the current situation, Card 2 shows either positive or negative influences that cross the situation (sometimes the universe is on your side, and sometimes it pushes obstacles in your way).

Card number 3 shows what consciously drives us into this situation, why we want to achieve what we want to achieve. Card number 4 shows what drives us unconsciously (that's the base of it). Fourth card is why we really are in such situation but it isn't apparent at the moment.

Card number 5 shows what preceeded this situation (the past) and card 6 shows what comes after (the future). From this sense cards 5,1,6 are The Three Cards spread and have the same relations as in that spread.

Card number 7 shows the querent's take on the situation. How he behaves and how he feels about the situation. It can happen that the situation will be good according to the reading just this card will show bad signs, that means the querent is too pessimistic about the whole thing to see things as they really are (opposite can happen too).

Card number 8 shows the surroundings of the querent, where it happens. This card can show the external influence regarding the situation and/or the querent (if you use The Celtic Cross instead of the Relationship spread, then this card represents querent's partner).

Card number 9 shows hopes and doubts. Positive cards are hopes and negative one are doubts (or fears). This card shows the the querent hopes for or what he is scared of.

Card 10 is the final result. We can say that card 6 is the near future and card 10 is the distant one. Once again we can do a Three Card spread comparison of cards 5,1,10 as we originally did 5,1,6. The difference between 6 and 10 is also important, as it shows the development of the situation in the future, so use these two as a Two Cards Of The Day spread.

Now, the reading of the spread has a bit different order. First cards you reveal are card number 5 and card number 9. You want to see these two first to find out what happened and what are expectations of the querent. The difference between these two should also give you some information about the current situation.

Next card you reveal is card number 1, the current state of the situation. Then card number 2, what is crossing the current situation. Then cards 3 and 4 to check the background of the situation, then followed by cards 7 (querent) and 8 (surroundings). While revealing each of the cards you are checking all the relationship between the cards and you are trying to sort of guess what will happen next.

Cards number 6 and 10, future related cards, are revealed as the last one. After you check all relationships between the cards you then should try to see the whole picture, to read the spread as the whole.

Current project

I do not post much once again. The reason is I currently use my spare time for writing. I am working on a book called Liber Azag: The Book Of Tarot (I will post some parts here a little bit later).

Twitter

So, i started tweeting, so feel free to follow me. I will follow you too, because I am a creep o_o

Just add FraterAkenu

News

So, I recently got sick so I had to calm down a little in my practices, I am currently focusing more on the internal stuff.

Regarding Shazu: I did a couple of readings with him, two about possible client cases. I like how descriptive the reading gets with Shazu, he really helps to get some insight.

Unfortunately both client cases were a no-no, for one I was told the girl has to resolve her problems on her own. For the second one I originally didn't use Shazu. The case was about the dark entity possession, I checked, found no entity, and contacted the client. I told him that I found nothing but sometimes these pesky creatures are very good at hiding. I also gave him some advices based on our communication and later I got sick. Then I called Shazu to find out the reason of the sickness and I was told about this case and that I should mind my own bussiness and also a safety of my family, so there it goes...

Yeah, I also found an old occult novel I was working on so I guess I will continue on that one.

Another talk with Shazu

So, I have had another talk with Shazu to gain better understanding of our previous conversation.

So, regarding the eye of Luna, I should ask Nanna about that. Fortunately Shazu had told me I do not need to go through the gate walking ritual and had shown me a summoning mandala for that purpose, I will try to redraw it when I get home (I forgot my drawing equipment home and Shazu was quite funny about it).
Akenu: Can you show me the mandala again so I can draw it?
Shazu: you won't be able to
Akenu: Why? Oh, I didn't take the pen and book with me, right?
Shazu: Reading future from the past.

He had also told me that to get his help for divination I have to make a white tablecloth with his seal on it and before the card reading or any other system of divination to call his name and word of power.

I have also asked him how far reaching his insight into future is, to which he responded that he can see my state till the end. I asked if my future was already decided then and he said it has already happened through ancient ages (I do not remember the exact phrase he had used).

When divination of others he said it depends on my ability to connect to their soul. He also said that the soul is one of 3 animizing sources for elemental body, second one being breath of Marduk and third one the blood of Kingu.

As far as I understood the elemental body, Shazu meant the whole body, so the physical body, the mind, the emotionality and the will.

Communication with Shazu

I hope I remember the whole conversation as it was very interesting. Shazu himself appeared with big decorated helmet (similar as Thai deities have).

Akenu: Shazu, can you teach me to read minds of others?
Shazu: No
A: and if I do the 3 days long ritual, can you teach me then?
S: Yes
A: So I will be able to hear thoughts of others?
S: No.
A: So what can you teach me?
S: To see the future, the present, and the past, and to read the future from the past.
A: and regarding telepathy?
S: To strenghten your manipulation of others.
A: Can my eye of the moon help in this?
S: No, but eye of Luna can.
A: You mean the eye of Nanna?
S: Yes.
A: O mighty Shazu, can you bless me in the name of Enki, the lord of Magicians and Marduk, the master mage?
S: I give you my blessings
A: Thank you, o mighty spirit.

Now I am very curious what he meant by the eye of Luna, maybe a Moon on the sky? Anyone any ideas?

Eye of the moon: awakening

So, originally I didn't want to reveal this practice but I ran my mouth on the forum and people got interested. It's one of the few things I discovered early when working in my past orathory. A technique very similar to the evil eye but a bit more conventional.
But be warned, misuse of the eye of the moon leads to insanity and split personalities, so I do not hold any responsibility for you, but still, if you have any troubles, feel free to contact me any time, sooner the better.
What is evil eye
Evil eye is a spiritual ability manifested by a great amount of hatred and greed. It's part of the folklore. It usually happens when you envy your neighbour soo much that you can literally kill his farm animals just by staring at them. Evil eye usually manifests only randomly and there is no conscious control of the process.
The eye of the moon is different in that it is easily manifested consciously and has rather hypnotic than destructive effects. It also bears some sort of clairvoyant ability, but about that one later.
How to awaken the eye of the moon
For the awakening you will need a mirror big enough to see at least a reflection of your head and very clean, without any impurities. You will also need a bowl of ice freezing water. It is said that water is the gate between Astral and physical and colder the better, about the temperature of 4 degrees Celsium is good enough, hence why to add some ice. If you have a sink under the mirror in your bathroom, that,s suitable enough.
It is also a good idea to have any experience with focal meditation as it is what we will do.
Before we start we should also choose the dominant and submissive eye. Extend your arms and use your hands to form a diamond and look at some distant object through the diamond. Close one eye, if you still see the object directly, this is your dominant eye, if you see your hand or some different angle than with both of your eyes open, this is your submissive eye.
Now to the procedure
Mirror should be placed on the wall right in front of your eyes, distance of your head from the mirror should be about 1 feet (experiment with it).
Place your hands into the bowl of ice cold water and hold them there during the whole procedure.
Gaze at the submissive eye of your reflection, but not the the mirror surface, imagine the mirror is the window to the other side and you are gazing to the eye of another person, feel the plasticity of the image.
Your breathing should be slow and deep, with pauses before and after inhale, inhale and exhale should take the same amount of time and so should take the pause.
During first 20 minutes your whole field of vision should go fully white so you won't see anything at all, but keep at it, then you will see edges of your face and white will slowly vanish in the eye of the reflection. Then you will notice the eye looks very different now, pupil of your submissive eye will be as small as the tip of the needle, with very big and blurry iris, sometimes a black or golden corona appears around the eye. This is the eye of the moon, this state usually keeps up for about an hour after awakening.
Effects of the eye of moon
This eye is highly suggestive, anyone looking into it can be easily manipulated by verbal suggestions. It also holds a strange version of clairvoyance. If you look above objects or people you will see strands of energy leaving the object. If I understood it correctly, this is the spiritual version of decay and aging of materials. Same strands of energy you will also be able to see during evocations, flowing from the summoning triangle.

Against curses

Just made a ritual to get rid of any evil spells or hexes put against. I will have to repeat this ritual for few more nights to get some potent effects.

Pro tip from one practitioner of sareva: rather write important names or word of power on your forearm, that way you will have it ready during the crucial part of invocation in case you forget the spelling

Random mandala

So today during the trip home I was drawing a random mandala to spend some spare time:

Well, this is as good as a drawing in the bus can get I guess :D

New book available

Astro Magick Essentials now available for sale, check it out:
http://www.scribd.com/doc/237567521/Astro-Magick-Essentials

Veganism not the healthiest

I have found this article from the ex-vegam so I am copying it here for further research: http://letthemeatmeat.com/post/1438446275/interview-with-an-ex-vegan-denise-minger

I am not vegan, I like meat, but I am interested in veganism because of all health benefit claims around it.

What is Chaos Magick

After I got asked a couple of times what Chaos Magick is, I decided to write an article about it. People usually don't have any problem with general definition, they just want to know what it really means and how it compares to the traditional systems.

Theory of tradition
The main question is the history of traditional systems, who founded them? There are many myths of fallen angels teaching Magick or great adepts (e.g. Hermes Trismegistos) sharing their wisdom with a group of initiates. Before we can get any further, we have to take these only as myths, with no credible evidence, later we will find out why.

Historically speaking there are certain similarities in the Magick development all around the world. It starts with death. People were always fascinated by death. Where do our friends and relatives go after they die? Can they tell us? Can we contact them? Do they have any power in the other world? Burials are as old as humanity, it's our way of tributing our family which in return will protect us. Time passes by and known deceased parents become less known deceased grandparents or completely unknown deceased ancestors. There we got into ancestral traditions.

Give it some time and a new religion and we will get the belief in demons, another new religion and now demons are the bad ones and angels are the good ones. As time passes a nature turns into Mother Earth, then in God and then back into nature. These events usually repeat in cycles. Unless...

The creation of the cult comes with the creation of dogma. Where does Magick come from and how it works? Questions asked by generations need explanation, so someone comes with the explanation. It comes from God, it comes from angels, or the worst: it was REVEALED. Beig revealed usually means it was passed to us in the perfect form and we should not change it. The truth is Magick is still in the process of development, getting into the dogma means to block this progress.

Chaos Magick comes into the play
So, in the world full of dogma a new current appears on the scene. Why should we say this exact incantation? It was translated anyway and it could be translated into dozen different versions, depending on the style and understanding of the person translating it. Yet it still works. Comparing different mutually exclusive traditions made us realize a couple of things. First of all these traditions are not compatible. Secondly they all claim that Magick works only when "xyz" and this "xyz" is always different depending on the tradition, but most importantly we realized all these traditions work, no matter they differences. This means that the Magick has to be somewhere else than our traditions explained, but where?

Chaos Magick comes with the simple explanation, our unconsciousness, our soul is the main figure in Magick, fortunately there is a filtering mechanism between our conscious and unconscious mind called a psychic censor, else all our thoughts, desires and fears would manifest. It's a mechanism that protects us from ourselves.

Chaos Magick also comes with ways of bypassing this censor, not one way, not one "xyz", but billions of "xyz". We all are individuals so different stuff works for each person. All we, chaotes, can do is to find our own unique style, one that suits us completely, one that makes the Magick work for us specifically.

Chaos Magick doesn't equal to Sigil Magick
Many people believe that Chaos Magick have anything to do with Sigils. Spare's Sigil system was a great inspiration, yes, but for a chaote it is just another system to use when you feel like it. Have you used Sigils a lot and they are getting boring? Throw them away and do Astro Magick, voodoo, or go for healings, listen to your inner calls and always have fun practicing, hepaby!

Difference between ecclectic and Chaos Magick
Ecclectic Magick is where you borrow from different traditions to create one big mixed system, usually glued on many places and with a decent amount of duct tape used where the fragments don't really match. Chaos Magick is more about digesting the whole system, using it, and throwing it away like it was a sock (or a cheap girl). Sometimes chaotes go through the same troubles as ecclectic magicians and they create a complex system just to throw it away again. Belief is used as a tool in Chaos Magick, that means chaotes don't have any static belief, they believe in what they need or what they feel like at the moment just to believe something completely different few moments later. It is said that it is easy to make a chaote to believe in something, but it's nearly impossible to make him stick with it. Being bored in Chaos Magick means you will find new sexy paradigm pretty soon.

Pitfalls of Chaos Magick
Chaotes generally use the idea of subjective process of Magick well, but many of us sooner or later will get the idea that the whole Magick is subjective, instead of just the process. This either leads to the incomplete system more similar to placebo than anything else or we will abandon Magick forever (or at least till it gains our attention again). This problem is partially caused by the non-existent finish line, the missing goal. There isn't any philosophy bound to Chaos Magick except "Nothing is true, everything is permitted", which makes people think they don't need any end goal in Magick, which makes them run in circles and then finally arrive at the point where everything is subjective and Magick doesn't work.

The end goal is needed, its very existence is the building block of Magick, just a specific goal is missing. The goal of the chaote is the goal chosen by the chaote. Choose your goal and follow it on the path you build for it, that's the secret key to success in Chaos Magick. Also keep in mind that our world is objective and Magick is objective, as well, just methods of interacting with this world and the Magick are individual for each of us.

Unexpected remote view

Today, during my astral projection attempt I was lying in my bed, when a very lucid vision of a black and red dog behind my fence appeared. I have one black and one red dog so I assumed the vision was about my dogs getting out of the garden.

So with certain difficulties I got up (my body was very numb and hard to control) and went outside to discover my dogs sitting in side the garden by the fence and looking outside, both of them at the same direction. I came closer to find out they are watching two dogs wandering by in the neighberhood, one was black and one was red :D.

I don't think it was an astral projection, it really felt rather as seeing things remotely.

Moon spirits

Yesterday I had to perform a healing for my son's illness. I have chosen to do a general Astro Magick ritual for the Moon spirits, as a side effect I had to wait for a suitable power and I overslept this morning, but guess what, my child is not sick anymore.

So, I would like to give my thanks to spirits of the Luna for acting this quickly upon my personal request.

P.S. General Astro Magick ritual will be available in the book named Astro Magick Essentials.

Strange dream

Yesterday I had a very strange vivid dream. I have noticed opened gate at my garden and horses nearby so I came to look if none of my horses is gone (this dream was set at night).

No horses were missing, in fact there was a new one, an unicorn. Big white unicorn. Sometimes a dust has come out of its horn, making a sort of maze-like pattern in the air, every time it happened this pattern was more and more complex. The unicorn then ran away and when doing so, the dust was forming into animal shapes.

The color of the dust was between violet and purple (this color used to be my octarine). I think it really was Posmiol because I am not a guy used to dream about unicorns... plus recently I had created his signature for the purpose of my new book.

New changes

I have finally decided to get rid of the ads, they were showing a nonsense most of the time anyway.

As the new feature there is now a PayPal donation button on the right, if you feel like donating then do so :D.

Some of you might also notice that Magickal Curriculum (http://www.scribd.com/doc/171161878/Magickal-Curriculum) is now only a preview and for the full view you will have to pay 2.99$. This situation will be kept for 2 months to find out how commerically viable the eBook selling is. After two months it will be free again.

Now I am working on Astro Magick Essentials, which will be my first commercial book, after the work on the book is finished, I will update Condensed Magick 101, which is the second free eBook in my repertoire.

Magician's name

Many of you might have heard about a Magician's name or Magickal name. Is it something important? What does it really mean?

Meaning behind the name
There is this old belief that if we know the real name of some entity, we can control it. There are many myths coming from Egypt where people found real name of their deities and forced these deities to give them immortality, so in that case a knowledge of the name meant power.
But what would be the use of one's Magickal name? Magickal name is the name of the Higher Self, that part of you responsible for Magick. Knowing the name of your Higher Self refers to the ability to control the HS. But it also has a much more pragmatic use.

Living the life
We are humans with all advantages and disadvantages of being such way. Sometimes we lie, sometimes we don't even know what we want, most of the time we have to do things we hate. Most of the time we are short-sighted about our wishes.
Try to think, what would happen if anything we wished for would instantly manifest? Individual things would be great, but most of the time the result would turn against us. For this reason we need a split between mundane and metaphysical, material and spiritual, life and Magick.
Using the Magician's name allows us to make a split between the two, giving us a better ability to control whether we wish to use Magick or not. But there are also more advantages

You are who you believe you are
Magickal name isn't just the symbol without meaning. The name refers to The Magician. The Magician is a person who knows Magick, who lives it. Magician will always know what to do, Magician will never panic, Magician will never lose the control. Name of the HS leads to the HS and for that can be used for a sort of a self/invocation. During self/invocation you temporarily obtain qualities of your ideal Magickal Self. This includes unhuman concentration, clear mind, calm reactions, amazing imagination, increased ability to visualize and also much better spiritual authority (in terms of evocations).

How to obtain your Magickal name
You can always try some order claiming they will reveal your Magickal name, but well, it's hard to find authenticity in the modern world. So you can always scry Your name for yourself. Deep meditation, affirmations before dreams or even automatic writing can help you reveal your name. You can also use the method used for creating new words in Ouranian Barbarian, scrabbles.

Simple method of self-invocation
Let's say you have already scried your Magickal name and you are preparing for a ritual. After the Sacred Chamber Ritual you are ready to go for a self/invocation, switching from your mundane to your Magickal Self. Close your eyes and repeat following words (accompanied with the best visualization you are able of):

It's the time for a switch, there is no need for a human in this operation, man's heart just stands in the path, animal mind just drags me away. It's the time to die and it's the time to be reborn.
I walk the path in the shadows of the valley of dead. There is no grass, there is no life. How dark and silent is this place.
I walk the path that leads to just one place... Sound of my steps gets thicker and thicker as I approach the Abyss. With each step my uncertainty raises, with each steps my heart cries more and more.
Choronzon sits on the edge of the Abyss, his red flaming eyes shine to the darkness that is holding my heart. He smiles, his maniacal laugh means he was waiting for me for this whole time. My heart nearly stops as I am getting closer.
There is another pair of eyes watching me, right behind the Abyss, eyes that are clean, without any emotion, with a lack of sympathy, these are not eyes of the human. I know the being staring at me, I tremble in fear of His power, I tremble in fear of His knowledge. Choronzon is just a shade, personification of Abyss. Nothing is real, just Him.
As I stand on the edge, right next to the Choronzon, I feel no fear of the demon, I am still staring at the eyes of Him, the perfection of me, [your Magickal name here].
Just one more step and the fall. It feels like I am falling for ethernity, as if there never was any beginning, as if there is no end of this madness. I keep falling and falling down the deep black hole, voices and screams deafening my ears, there is nothing to see, only the sense of falling and the tongue of insanity to be heard.
Then I stand on the edge of the Abyss, I returned back, as someone else. Those distant memories of being a human are tasteless, there is no emotion needed to know, there is no real life in the ilussion. I am not a human, anymore.
Spirits of Light and spirits of Darkness, hear my voice and do as I say. Come here to this place and do my Will. I possess the powers of Life and of Death, I control winds and fire, I am the beginning and I am the ending, everything that comes to this world comes through me. I. Am. [your Magickal name here].

There are more ways of achieving the state of mind you will have after this operation, you might also want to modify this incantation a little bit. Feel free to do so and enjoy its effects.

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Alternative education

There is a lot of criticism regarding alternative education. Well, let me tell you something about the mainstream one. I was in the school for 14 years. Nine years of elementary school, four years of high school and one year college.

Elementary school was the worst one in the republic (but was the nearest one). There was a lot of bullying in the school and also drugs. The only reason I didn't start with drugs was I wasn't one of the cool kids. Most lectures consisted of old Communist teacher writing really fast on the blackboard and erasing it when it was full. You weren't able to write down notes fast enough? Your problem.

I started smoking weed on the very first day of the high school, I was one of the cool kids, till 2 years later when we had an argument. Our networking teacher once told us that we are not active enough and why won't we e.g. try to get admin access to the lab computers. This teacher later hated me for hacking computers in all 3 labs we had and he did his best in attempts to fire me from the school, that didn't work out for him so he at least tried to give me a low schore during graduation exams.

After high school I wanted to go to work, but I had problems with my first girlfriend which got me emotionally, then my parents gave me ultimatum, I will either go to college or I will have no home.

College wasn't so bad, I found a lot of friends there and thanks to the timesheet of lectures (2 hours lectures, 4 hours free, 4 hours lectures) I started drinking heavily (what else to do in the town where you don't know anyone). After first two semesters I left the school and went to work as a software engineer, I am in the same company since then. Oh, one thing I forgot, I studied Informatics faculty, but because the whole school was Biology oriented, I had more essays about BSE and stuff than about IT.

Generally my experience with education wasn't great. Our education system is old, teaching a lot of stuff that were either outdated or simply wrong, even nowadays I sometimes get into problems when I say something I know from school. Programming is the only thing I learned home (I originally wanted to be a game creator), and it's the thing that pays my bills now.

Critics of alternative education say you won't get important lesson about social communication. Yes, you won't meet drug dealers and the bottom of the society before they get their photo in the evidence.

Critics also say that school teaches you how to think. Yes, convergent thinking is a great way how to achieve nothing in the world. Don't take me wrong, convergent (logical) thinking is important, but you should be able to use divergent (intuitive) thinking as well.

In about a second year in the office my gf told me about her metaphysical problems and I started studying occultism. After a whole year I found out how to get her rid of the problem. Since then Magick opened various gates for me. I started being interested in arts, in psychology, even in history (I hated history since the elementary school because our teacher was old angry b*tch), I also hated literature because our Literature teacher in the high school was the same kind of b*tch as the history one.

If I sum it up, school has caused me a various problems and a hate for most of the study, I am still in the process of repairing these damages. I also believe I would be less socially awkward if I wasn't forced to sit in the same classroom with thieves, bullies and drug dealers for 13 years of my life, actually if I stole something I would be in the prison with these inmates for much shorter amount of time.

Ending up like one of our criminal students isn't a thing of genetics. It's a thing of environment. A lot of them had bad parents and bad social situation, they simply had bad luck. My best friend from elementary school was better in everything than I. But him being cool was also one of the problems, he started doing drugs. From what I have heard he never finished high school, he never got to work, he started stealing and for some time he was also selling his ass for drug money. That's the end of a cool genius kid.

Karmic retributions

The theme of karma seems to be reappearing lately. The western idea is that good deeds bring good to the life and bad deeds bring bad to the life.

Western understanding is based on the concept that there is objective good and objective evil, that there is objective morals and universal justice. I am personally more inclined to believe that morality is subjective and that these retributions happen based only for this subjective morality. Do something against your better judgement and you will be punished, but what if this better judgement takes killing and stealing as good deeds? Then the idea of objective punishment falls apart, doesn't it?

No, there still is an objective retribution, but based on subjective criteria. It is more oriented in a sense of whether you believe you did good or bad, so we could say the judgement is based on your conscience.

It is also good to say that not every event is based on this retribution, random stuff hapens most of the time, hence why good people suffer bad fate, they didn't do anything wrong, it's just the Chaos out there doing Its usual job. The problem is that karma lovers usually don't see this as they are living in their own box where everything is perfect, reasonable and well deserved. I also believed that the universe is fair, and in fact it fair is, it is as random to you as to anyone else. Some people seem more lucky but the luck is a very windy thing, quick to leave. Everybody has problems and that makes it fair.

Cheer up, Chaos also allows you to influence your everyday's deal or reality, that's when Magick comes in handy. But you have to be able to use this gift, you have to practice, not just read about it.

New book draft ready to revision

Feel free to review a following condensed approach to the basics of Magick:
http://www.scribd.com/doc/234401632/Condensed-Magick-101

This stuff happens

There is some event from yesterday I should mention. When I was returning from the car service there was a part where I forgot myself and instead of driving the usual 90 kmph (which is a speed limit) I went 20 kmph less. In the turn I have met a truck that was trying to overtake the tractor, effectively blocking my part of the road. If I were going the usual speed, I would surely be dead by now as my BMW isn't truck crash resistant :D.
So yeah, stuff like this happens when you are practicing Magick.

Bardon's teacher

People on the internet usually don't believe me that Quintscher was actually Bardon's teacher instead of his student, even when I am Czech so I got a bit better access to this information.

Fortunately I have found this:
http://www.chaosmatrix.org/library/chaos/texts/letter1.html

It's from my favorite occult author, Frater U.D.

Now, it doesn't mean that IIH is bad, IIH is a great system, it's just not from Bardon's head.

International trip

International trip. That's when you go to Prague to meet a Russian that will sell you an Italian spare part to German BMW :-D.

I love how the life turns out sometimes :-D

Available for download

Magickal curriculum is now available for download at "right here"

Just click the link, let the PDF to open and then in the upper left corner press the download button.

Third grade of Magickal curriculum available.

I have finally added third grade to the curriculum. I tried to do so yesterday, but I accidentally erased the second grade which I had to fix today.

I have also added appendix to the curriculum with some cool stuff.

So, as always, the curriculum is available here: http://www.scribd.com/doc/171161878/Magickal-Curriculum
it is for free and full of awesome content :).

Magickal Curriculum delayed

I chose to interrupt the work on the curriculum now, stuff that was made so far will be put into the third grade and the rest will go to the fourth grade later (yes, I made a decision to make another grade).

For now I want to work on a simplified version of the curriculum for those lazy and without time :D. Well, I got a couple of suggestions about the curriculum being too hardcore, so, yeah...

Multiple energies

People still tend to argue with me about energies. Generally they say there are physical and non-physical energies, they can feel them differently, use them differently...

I don't consider that to be bad, I myself believed that too some years ago, I felt thesew different energies, I could even invoke that fancy magickal energy to gain more of it, but from the occult perspective it was like stamp collection, it has no real influence in this world.

Since then I have learned how to recognize and work with real energy, also how to gain this energy, how to make my body to generate more of it.

I usually try to argue with people that you can hardly have separate energies as this would make it possible to do one's will during massive headaches or exhausted after many days without sleep. The problem is that exhaustion is like a love, you can experience something fifty times and believe it's a love, but only when you expereience a real love, you can distinguish it between the rest.

Many people believe that exhaustion is what you get e.g. after 6 hours of martial arts training. Your body has energetic reserves for survival purposes (these reserves can be accessed e.g. by taking caffeine). Exhaustion is when all this energy is depleted, when each of your step is dependent on your will, at the time the only working but malfunctioning part of Self, when you feel your heart acting weird, your limbs are numb, not in pain from training, but numb and each step makes you wonder why you can still stand and why you shouldn't just give up and drop down where you just are, that's the real exhaustion and after such exhaustion it is normal to sleep over 24 hours as the body has to fill these reserves.

Next part people tend to argue about are headaches, there I would like to make something as clear as possible, I always speak about massive immobilizing headaches, those you can't even move while having one. I want to make that clear because people usually reply to this: "No, you can still use the non-physical energy during mild headaches, you can even sometimes make them go away". So for those who are a bit slower: no one was talking about mild headaches.

Strange...

There is one event from the last week I didn't have time to mention, yet. It was actually quite hard to collect information on it as I wasn't present.

My mother-in-law was trying to force our chickens in a certain direction, and for that she was waving around with a big stick. This stick hit one rooster to the head and he apparently dropped dead.

After this happened my 2yo son found the rooster, grabbed it, put it on a table, sat next to it, petting and talking to the "dead" rooster for a couple of minutes.

Then he grabbed the rooster again, he put it between other chicken and turned around to leave, during that the rooster stood up and went away.

Now, it's very possible that the rooster was just unconscious, but him being knocked out for so long, being carried around and wake up exacty at the moment right after my son put him on the ground...

It was either a very strange coincidence or my son is going to be more powerful than his daddy, I mean way more powerful. After all he is a son of a Magician and a witch.

Dangers of Magick

There are few dangers in Magick you should be aware of. This is quite a known topic but I don't remember ever writing about it. Still, you might see that my version is a little bit different.

You become too sure
This is the case of the most beginners. You start practicing Magick, getting results and you start thinking too much about yourself. Easy way how to defeat the arrogance is to remember you are not the chosen one. Hard way is to piss off someone beyond your grade.

You are too out of reality
Some people tend to go to extremes, seeing angels, demons, unicorns and white rabbits everywhere. This world is enough interesting without living in fantasies, remember that. Plus living in a fantasy equals to doing Magick in fantasy, which is about as useful as a lobotomy. Here also comes another sub-category: you are too gullible, don't believe everything anyone says.

You are too grounded
Living in a purely physical world with strict physical rules bears some limitations, including not working Magick. It's mostly because of that little quiet voice in the back of your head saying: "this feat is impossible", having these problems usually leads to abandoning Magick.

You follow too much strictness
Strict rules, strick procedures, strict morals, that's a slow and painful way of becoming lazy and abandoning the Great Work, fast way is eating chips and watching television, plus it's more fun.

To avoid this problem don't be too strict on yourself, your practice should be enjoyable. Experiment and have fun.

You believe in karma
Karma, law of reflections, three-fold law and few others are artifical constructs, they spread like a virus from heart to heart. Time by the time we need to be a bit tough, then these viruses stand in the way. Do you think vodun priests have this problem? No, they don't. Remember: Nothing is true, everything is permitted, keep that in mind.

You take your belief to the professional level
Professional level of belief means you think your religion is the only correct one and you are enforced to shove your beliefs through other people's throats. Calm down, everyone has a right for their religion, everyone also has a right for their privacy and everyone also has a right to beat you to shreds if you limit any of his rights.

New web

I have found a good webhosting and started already working on the CMS system for the new website. It takes a long time because most of my spare time is taken by my practices plus the web development changed a lot since my last endeavors with php. So I am currently learning php 5, mysql 5 and html 5 (with css 3) during the process.

Generally I am very happy, php finally solved the problems with the sql injection via prepared statements, mysql got a lot faster and supports transactions and procedures now and html 5 even supports x3dom (so be sure to expect some cool 3d content on my new site).

Plus I will get a lot of space from the webhosting so I will be able to host a lot of external sites and blogs, as well. So stay tuned and expect to be amazed :-D.

Getting annoyed

I am getting a little bit annoyed regarding the Blogger, I think I should write my own CMS system where I could separate the blog and articles and also put articles into appropriate categories with a possibility of translation to foreign languages.

Well, it is possible to translate my articles here, but with a very shady ability to categorize my articles and with a very bad SEO possibilities.

I also don't want to use commonly available content management systems because general solutions always sucked imho.

Well, first of all I have to find a good webhosting provider.

Physical manifestation

What is a physical manifestation
Physical manifestation is purpotedly an event when a spirit attains a physical form during which it can freely communicate and interact with the Magician or anyone around.

We split the physical manifestation into two categories: full manifestation and partial manifestation.

Full manifestation is when the spirit is fully materialized, its whole body is visible and the manifestation is consistent (stable). Partial manifestation can be arms, legs, head, shoulders, usually also flowing from one body part to the other one during the course of the evocation.

Concerns regarding physical manifestation
I am not a big fan of the idea of spirit being "materialized", I would rather explain it as "Astral light being densified to the point of being visible" than "assemling particles to the form of a spirit". It's true that I was able to achieve only a partial manifestation, never a full one, but I doubt the process is any different. What I believe is really happening during the manifestation is the Magician getting to the right trance state of seeing the spirit as real as it was truly physical.

There also is a claim that anyone will be able to see such a manifested spirit, not only clairvoyant mediums. Well, I worked with people before and they really did see what I saw, but was it because the spirit was truly physically materialized or was it because they were part of the evocation from the beginning to the end and the ritual itself had the same effect on me as it had on them? Would they see the same what I saw if they came in after the manifestation occured? I personally doubt that.

How to for physical manifestation
The setup is as always, just in the beginning you state your request for the spirit to manifest its presence in a visible form. Shadow evocation technique we learned before has amazing results regarding physical manifestation, and it can also help you to pinpoint the exact location of the manifested spirit (in the middle of distance between you and your shadow on the wall).

Main problem regarding physical manifestation is time. You must be sure you are able to spend about two hours performing the ritual, calling the spirit to manifest again and again, cursing it and commanding it by all godly and godless names you can think of and doing so till the spirit appears. I know you were expecting a bit more, but this is really no-brainer, it's just time consuming.