Positive experience with nine breaths exercise

I haven been feeling very sick for last couple of days. Today I had to do some hard manual work but I wasn't even able to stand up from bed.
I performed Nine Breaths exercise and after that my body felt numb, but I was able to move and do the work, this effect lasted for about one hour.

I wanted to post some link here on the exercise but I cannot find the version I am using on-line, I will describe the exercise next time I get here :)

Beauty of the hexagram

Hexagram. Beautiful symbol. Symbol of balance, symbol of noble Magick, but is that enough for post-modern time?
 


Here is the standard hexagram, the star of David, the Solomon’s seal, interconnection of heaven and earth

Fire element sign highlighted on the star



Water element highlighted on the star



Air element highlighted on the star



Earth element highlighted on the star.

Symbol of balance

Now let’s try something different, let’s add 2 diagonal lines and I will quickly explain to you why I call this one the symbol of balance, the better version of hexagram.









Pentagram highlighted on the star



Reversed pentagram highlighted on the star

 
Crowley’s uni-corsal hexagram, symbol of Thelema, highlighted on the star.

Although the hexagram already is a symbol of balance from hermetic sense of view, I find the new symbol to be more fitting for the post-modern age. This new hexagram seems to be more suitable to show the balance of different practices, of different paradigms, it’s a fitting symbol for Hermetic as well as Chaos Magick. For White as well as for Black Magick. It can be used in theurgy as well as in thaumaturgy.

From now on I declare this symbol to be symbol of the middle hand path and symbol of my paradigm for everything is in there and everything is in perfect balance. Nothing is outstanding, everything is included.

Wisdom of Kabbalah, part III

Tree of Life

Etz Khaim, the Tree of Life, is a pretty famous thing when it comes public knowledge of Kabbalah. Depiction containing the whole universe, the map of the life, Etz Khaim that contains everything and explains everything. Well, it depends on what you consider everything, language of branches is pretty wise choice here. I am now going to explain to you what is Etz Khaim, how to understand it (in general, abstract matter), how to draw it (many people find it hard to draw Etz Khaim) and how to use it (in terms of understanding).

Kether

Kether (the crown), is the very first sephirot (fruit) on the top of Etz Khaim. It's called the crown for where it stands and also for what it means). Kether is singularity, kether is non-duality, kether is the beginning, kether is the source, kether is the big bang. I will explain the rest when the whole EK (Etz Khaim) is formed.

Chochmah and Binah

 Two sephirots below Kether. Chochmah (wisdom) and Binah (understanding), this is where singularity splits and duality is manifested, creative and creating, intellectual and practical, here is where wiccan god and goddess reside. Here is where light is split from darkness and black from white.


Kether, Binah and Chochmah are considered as higher sephirots of EK. In the depiction above we can see relationship between Binah, Chochmah and Kether.

Zeir Anpin

Zeir Anpin(ZA) is a set of six sephirots, sometimes they are also collectively called Tipheret (Glory), which is the central sephirot of ZA. It is also said that Tiferet contains all qualities of 5 remaining sefirots of ZA.


The relationship might look a bit harsh, but let's take it this way. Tipheret, as the center of ZA, communicates with Kether, Binah and Chochmah. And, for the same reason, Tipheret communicates with the rest of ZA.
The rest of the ZA are also communicating with each other and Gevurah and Chesed are communicating with Binah and Chochmah. I will do a favor to you and I won't mention the rest of ZA here as it is not important yet. Now it is only important to remember Zeir Anpin and Tipheret.

Malkuth

Malkuth (Kingdom) is the lowest sephirot of the world (we will talk about Kabbalistic worlds in next chapter), it is our kingdom (in this world, of course).
On the finished depiction you can see Malkuth is linked with Zeir Anpin and it allows a soul to choose three basic paths on the Tree of Life. In hermeticism, right hand path and left hand path (left and right side of the tree of life) are usually considered, but beware, there is path in the middle, leading through ZA directly to Kether :).

What it means?

Going from above, we can see the story of creation. Kether, The All, chose to start the process of creation so The All limited itself, it split black from white and existent from non-existent, that's Binah and Chochmah. Through duality The All then went to the process of actual creation (ZA) to create Malkuth, our plane.
From the bottom EK shows the process of ascension from Malkuth up to Kether with a list of possibilities.
We can also see that Kether never communicates with Malkuth directly. The Reason is that Malkuth is not clean enough to obtain the Light directly from Kether. Chochmah, Binah and ZA are a form of filters to filter the Light, so Malkuth gets only what it is ready for (limited perception of reality).
Higher you get, more unfiltered the Light is and wider the perception of reality is. But for such ascension to be possible, every lower sephirot must contain a fragment of the higher sephirot, so Malkuth already has to contain a fragment of the Light from Yesod (between Malkuth and Tipheret) for Malkuth to be able to ascend on the level of ZA.
It's even more complex because higher sephirots of one world are lower sephirots of the next world. To simplify it a bit more: Kether of Asiyah is Malkuth of Yetzirah.

And because it isn't possible for Malkuth to even perceive Kether, Binah or Chochmah, there is Tiphereth. Tiphereth contains angels, demons, deities, demiurges, etc, whatever higher we can imagine. Tiphereth is what we usually consider gods or miracles, simply because we cannot comprehend or even imagine Kether.

Daath

Daath (Discovery) is sometimes depicted as the 11th hidden sephirot between Kether, Binah and Chochmah.
Zohar says there are not 8 or 9, but 10 sephirots, no more and no less. Daath isn't sephirot, it's a process of discovery, process of obtaining light (Aur) directly from Kether to Malkuth, this process is possible only through honest belief and solid introspection.

Conclusion

EK still isn't enough explained in this series. Reason is I have to describe Worlds and Lights first. The point is that I couldn't explain Worlds without sephirots and I will need to explain Lights to explain sephirots well enough :). But when I explain Worlds, process of ascension and interconnection of sephirots will become more clear and when I explain the Lights, the whole process of ascension will be explained.

If you have any questions or suggestions, please use the comments section :).

Reminder of choice

This is something as old as our society. Ability we all share but most of us do not use it. If you know another person enough, you can control the person. It gives you power to influence the other person according to your will, you just need to use the right words and right terms. You can also use this same ability to avoid unnecessary conflicts. Psychology is your friend, use it wisely :).

Vampire: Finishing line

So, in the end it seems that the partial incantation was enough to loose the leash, yesterday  the victim figured out the problem and ended the relationship. The incantation was finished during the evening by my apprentice, just in case :).

Wisdom of Kabbalah, part II

Language of branches

It is a major part of Kabbalah, pure Kabbalistic texts are not understandable without knowledge of language of branches.

The point is quite simple, you cannot talk about spiritual experience because spiritual world is beyond physical world and although we have words for physical objects and events, we don't have suitable words for spiritual objects and events.

Because Kabbalah believes that lower origins in higher (hermetic As Above, So Below) the system of deriving meaning was created, the system is the language of branches.

Usage is simple, if we consider that lower origins in higher, we can easily use same words we would normally use for the lower manifestation to specify the higher meaning. In other words, when a Kabbalist talks about a kiss. He doesn't mean the kiss as the physical touch of lips of two people. He speaks about the things that are above this physical output. If we go above, we will find emotions, emotions leading to physical kiss, if we go above emotions, we will find a reason, a cause that invoked these emotions. If we go above this reason, we can jump to many more layers of these factors till, in the end, we will get to the spiritual plane, a place where two spirits shared the same wish to interact, to interact in the manner that went down the layers to the physical one where it manifested as the kiss.

Of course we could go even above this layer, and above and above, till we would lose the feeling of duality and arrived at the place where everything is truly one, place of unity, place of singularity, Kether of Adam Kadmon world.

Of course that this solution still has its limitations. For example you can hardly talk about spirituality with someone that doesn't know the language of branches and sometimes you cannot even communicate well with a fellow Kabbalist because his level of understanding is a bit different than yours.

Vampire Update

So, obviously an incomplete incantation wasn't enough.
Well, that wasn't totally unexpected, I will fight. I just need to restore some strength, I haven't sleep enough last two days.

Psychic vampires everywhere

Yesterday was one of those days when pieces of puzzle start to fit in and the big picture is created.
I do not like psychic vampires. I do not like their manipulative behavior and especially when it affects people I consider my family.
Yesterday was a day of burning, day of exorcisms, the day of Maqlu text. Time by the time I like to dive into Necronomicon as I find its style refreshing, simple, usable and understandable. I didn't manage to finish the incantation as something very unexpected happen, still I hope that I loosened the leash of the vampire to the point where it loses its power over my friend. In case of need, I will finish the incantation this evening.

Wisdom of Kabbalah, part I

Introduction

Kabbalah is a quite famous and beautiful topic, but unfortunately the most misunderstood one. For that reason I made my mind to create a short series of articles regarding this philosophy, to explain some parts and touch the core of Kabbalah.

During the series it is possible that you will find some words being written differently. Reason is that I am not going to use common convention how to write these words in English, but I am rather going to write the words in manner to simplify the pronunciation.

In the series I am also going to explain common words like sephirots, worlds, lights and I am going to teach you language of branches. Language used to communicate Kabbalah, language used to communicate things that are beyond normal physical comprehension and therefore beyond any mortal language.

What is Kabbalah all about?

This is actually very direct question and very beautiful topic. Topic we will dive deep into during the course of the series but let me give a short summary here.

Kabbalah is the life philosophy based on deciphering ancient sacred scriptures through understanding of language of branches and finding a completely new meaning of aforementioned scriptures. Some people say that Kabbalah is a secret wisdom, but that's not true. Kabbalah doesn't contain any greater wisdom, just the path for obtaining the Wisdom. Once you understand the key, it's not a big issue for you to find the Higher Wisdom behind any scripture, behind any text.

No matter whether you are reading Old Testament or you are chatting with your friend about sport, you will be able to retrieve the higher meaning behind that, the ultimate truth behind the mundane content.

Why do I feel as an authority for teaching Kabbalah?

Kabbalah is my life philosophy for quite some time now and no matter what course of action my spiritual practice took, no matter on how much unknown ground I have found myself, I have always found a solid background in my life thanks to the Kabbalah.

Kabbalah change the greater portion of my life and honestly, it appeared in my life at the right time. Without this higher understanding it would happen a long time happen that I would take my life and ended my existence on this plane. Thanks to this practice I didn't only change my decision but I also found a new power to fight for what was rightfully mine, I found new inner source of power but also a new understanding for literally every system I was studying at the time. Enochian Watchtowers, Tabula Recensa, Hermetic laws, Goetia, Elementalism and even Chaos Magick, that all exposed a completely new meaning under light of Kabbalah, and this is something I want to share with all of you.

Take my words as you will, as a condescending eternal truth, or with a grain of salt, this choice is up to you.

Forgiveness

It's strange how things end up sometimes. Two days ago I have finally made the decision to pray. I haven't prayed for about half a year. So many things changed.  I passed one zonei, I conjured foreign deities and entities, petitioned demons, casted some curses... Although I know there is nothing like objective good and evil and that good and evil are just human thing, I still felt morally down to talk to the Highest One...
During the prayer I made a list of everything I did and I thought it was bad, I talked with opened mind and saying out loud what I was thinking, it was more like talking to my old friend than a prayer to the omnipotent being.
Result wasn't a punishment, but a sort of relief, I started feeling much lighter like a heavy brick fell down from my chest.
Yesterday I prayed to God to bring joy and adventure into my life. In the evening we went shopping and guess what I found. Three crystal glasses, waiting there for me. Crystal glass, something I wanted to use for necromantic operations but I couldn't find it anywhere, pure crystal glasses without any engravings and fancy decorations, waiting there for me, silently whispering the name Haniel, angel I used to conjure in God's name to bless the mirror.

Better work performance

Yesterday was one of those annoying days that work is slow and you will like complete loser, somewhere around the evening I have used my phone to cast a sigil to do my work better. Today I managed to solve a couple of issues and I also finally found out why my phone sometimes tend to loop in restarting as crazy. From all occasions I recall the restarting happening, it was always a day after I used my phone for sigil magick.
It seems that phone somehow stores the energy and then it lags after phone charging takes place. I guess I will have to ask some technomancer whether he has a similar problem and how to solve it. I usually just use simple Divine Light Manipulation technique to get dark energy out and positive light in, but it's pretty annoying.

Worth the watching

Nice relaxing video with amazing audio and impressive symbolism.

Recent updates

Nothing much happening nowadays. My apprentice is busy with his personal life so we are a bit behind a schedule. During weekend a performed an evocation of some goetic spirit, evocation failed and literally any Magickal attempt didn't attract any spiritual attention, that guy has to be spiritual anti-magnet...

After that we tried some tests for "paranormal" abilities, specifically suggesting a person with closed eyes to pick a certain card from 4 cards spread. It turned out that system I used to determine receiving hand does work only to determine natural receiving hand, not the current state.

Level of probability

It can happen that when you specify intent for sigil with tight schedule, result might be delayed by day or two depending on how complex the process must be. And when you are specifying when, be sure to be as specific as possible. Next day can also mean next day midnight.

Video about the mind's eye

Very good video explaining how our brain "shifts" reality to match perception with expectation.

Recent update regarding the amulet

I originally thought it could be a good idea to use reflective amulet to practice combat spells. Problem with my headache formula is that it doesn't take effect only during the execution, yesterday the headache built gradually and I was useless for the rest of the day (effects faded around midnight).

Headache

I have felt a bit tired so I went for a short sleep, headache gradually built up.

Recent experiment with the amulet

Today I have tried to cast the spell on the amulet by means of causing a headache. I have ended up with slight pressure inside skull and stiff neck.

I will see if the headache develops today or the formula needs more charging.