Salamander Experiment: Gematria

I was still thinking why my HGA recommended me using ELTASA instead of ELUTASA so I checked what Gematria can say about those two words. ELUTASA has value of 417, nothing special with that range. ELTASA has value of 217, same value as for God of Fire, also Atem Ra, Logos.

Salamander Experiment: Little delay

For lack of time I chose to continue with the experimentation during the weekend, at least I will have more time to suitable preparations.

Salamander Experiment: Settings and first day

Description
I made a decision to do a salamander conjuration to test and learn new method of conjuring entities.

Key Objectives

• Learn mirror conjuration with aid of smoke
• Summon a fire elemental with the new method
• Meet a friendly and loyal salamander and gain his name

Preparation
After discussing the topic with HGA I chose following settings:
Slighly charged black mirror placed on the base for correct positions and incense stick placed so the smoke will be placed just in the front of the center of the mirror. Three lit candles as a source of fire, two of them being placed on the sides of the mirror and one just below the tip of the incense stick, one unlit candle just below the stick to be lit by the conjured Salamander. No other source of light in the room except those three candles.
ELUTASA word of power created for this conjuration.

The ritual
I stood in the front of the mirror and prayed to God to cleanse the room of all negativity and to watch over the ritual. Then I stated my wish for a salamander to arrive and started with incantation of the word of power. Smoke stood still and calm for a couple of minutes, then it split into two and then three pillars. I restated my wish for salamander to appear and manifest through the smoke in the front of the mirror and continued with chanting the word of power. Smoke then took a shape of a tail and part of the body (I probably own too small mirror for this conjuration).
I repeated the conjuration for a couple times before the shape became more stable. I stated my wish for salamander to light the remaining candle, a sort of light appeared on the tip of candle but it wasn't lit.
After repeating the chanting again I came closer to the smoke to touch it. It was surprisingly strong and hot, the shape was pretty stable no matter how much a moved around it.
After licensing to depart and thanking God and spirits for listening to my ritual I went to the smoke (now being more random) and touching it again, now the smoke was cold and not so solid for the touch.

HGA's hints after the ritual
My HGA told my that my evocation was successful, but it won't be enough to light the candle even after repeating the ritual for more days. I got a couple of tips, for example I should use ELTASA instead of ELUTASA (ELTASA was the original word before I modified it to simplify the pronunciation) and I also was told to create a Sigil for the word to use as a focal point for the evocation. I will make my preparations and continue with the evocation tomorrow.

Traditional way of working with Sigils

Introduction
I decided to create an article about how to work with Sigils as originally intended by A. O. Spare.
Sigil is a result of "encrypting" a message or intent so it can get past the psychic censor and get implanted directly into our unconsciousness. Sigil can be visual or audial, hidden in picture, sound, mantra or even in a book. Sigil can also be a gesture or feeling but in this article we will focus on visual Sigils.

What is a psychic censor
Psychic censor (sometimes called Holy Guardian Angel) is a filtering mechanism attached to the communication channel between conscious and unconscious mind. This psychic censor is believed to filter all Magick related communication to assure security of the person. Desires are not the only problem, without psychic censor, your fears could manifest as well.

Theory behind Sigils
After our intent is sigilized (transformed into Sigil), we have to temporarily disable the censor. This is done be reaching altered state of consciousness called gnosis. In gnosis our thoughts are interrupted and the whole mind concentrates at one point. This state is used to focus on the Sigil, implanting it into our unconsciousness.
Then we have to make sure that the Sigil is banished from our consciousness before Psychic Censor is reactivated else our spell would be cancelled.

Requirements for basic Sigil Magick
All you need is a pen and paper. Specify your intent and write it down on the paper, this part is important for formulating what you really want.
You can use some Magickal alphabet to assure your conscious mind is not going to interrupt the process if you are going to use the same paper for the finished Sigil.

Sigilization process
After assuring our intent is what we really want we take letters of the intent and combine them into the symbol of our intent, our Sigil. Letters that are presented more than once are drawn into the Sigil just during the first occurrence.
After we are done we can keep moving, combining and reshaping letters till we are satisfied with the result.
We can also use curls, crosses, crescents, flowers and other symbols to improve the Sigil, to make the intent even more distant for our conscious mind.
If you are new to Sigils, make them more complex so it's easier for you to forget them (banish them from consciousness).
Another way of sigilization is a pictorial one. You create a picture for what you want and then you start simplifying it and reshaping till you get a Sigil. This method is also used for distant healing, you just have to create picture of the person you wish to heal, add initials of the person and some mark of the place that needs healing, symbol of a needle is usually used for such mark, then you derive a Sigil from it.
Another way of creating Sigils is automatic drawing, throwing stones on the floor, splashing paint on the wall, etc.

Reaching Gnosis
Gnosis needed for the charging is split into two categories, inhibitory and exhibitory.
Inhibitory gnosis is a result of long and deep meditation, giving you the perfect state for any spell casting.
Exhibitory gnosis is quick but hard to control, usually induced by sensory deprivation, choking, overbreathing or even drug abuse, some of these are usually contained within Death Postures.

Death Posture
Death Posture is a way of reaching Exhibitory Gnosis. Traditional one has following keypoints that should be maintained:
- Stand on your tiptoes.
- Connect your hand behind your back and stretch your body. Keep stretching your body.
- Breathe very deep but very fast.
- Have your eyes closed till you reach the point just before losing your consciousness, then open your eyes and stare at the Sigil.
- Make sure you won't hurt yourself when you are falling on the floor.

Another Death Posture
This Death Posture is used by me. You can sit when performing this one so the possibility of getting hurt in the process is significantly lowered. I found this posture in Practical Sigil Magick by Frater U.D. and I really like it.
Place a Sigil in front of yourself and close your eyes. Hold your breath and use fingers of your both hands to block your eyes, your ears and your nose. Keep holding your breath as long as you can. When you cannot hold it any longer, keep it for a while till you really can't (fun fact: you cannot choke yourself). Then open your eyes and gaze at the Sigil for a moment, even a split of a second is enough.

What to do after charging
After the Sigil is charged you should immediately banish it from your mind, experience shows that faster you do so, more potent the sigil will be.
To do so you should close your eyes, dispose of the Sigil and evoke laughter.

Disposing of the Sigil
Sigil disposal can have various formats. From burning the paper through throwing it away up to simply closing the notepad you use for Sigils.

Evocation of Laughter

This is the final piece. Just start laughing like crazy, the laugh will be forced in the beginning, but then it will become something more. Laugh is also great for your health and also a perfect spiritual protection.

Recent info

My girlfriend is out of danger now, she will be kept in the hospital till Friday for observation and then she will be sent home. It seems the accident had no external influence, which is good :).
I am not still fully back but I will start posting again.

Personal issues

I need to withdraw from on-line life for a while. My girlfriend had a car accident and I need to fully focus on that case, so I want to say sorry to each of my clients, I cannot do the bidding now.
After healing is done I will search whether there was some external influence and if I find someone, I will collect heads.

Chaotic Self-Initiation into Magickal Practice

Introduction

I wanted to give my readers some way how to enter the world of Magick, the point was to create Self-Initiation that would be powerful enough but wouldn't drag those initiated into any dogma. Path of MHP, the middle path, is the path of personal choice and no one walking this path should be limited by false beliefs, dogmatic orders or binding oaths.

Why Chaos?

I chose Chaos to be the source of the initiation for a couple of reasons. First of all Chaos is neither good nor bad, Chaos simply cannot be categorized, that's why it is Chaos, after all.
Second reason is that Chaos doesn't signify any kind of order, in other words, it doesn't correspond to any dogma.
Third reason is the connection between Primal Chaos and THE ALL. These two terms go for the same thing, just one causes the fear within us and the second one creates respect.

Requirements

For the purpose of the ritual you will need one candle and Chaostar as a reference point. Instead of Chaostar you can use the Symbol of balance, as well (can be found on my blog).
You will also need some quiet place where no one will interrupt the ritual, preferably during night, dim light background is the best bet.

Preparation

Take the candle and carve your name to it using a knife or hot needle, this candle will represent your life and your existence, if you want to some incense sticks, go for Santhal wood, if you want to have some background music, you can, but neither the incense nor the music is important for the ritual, selection of the music will be left up to your intuition.

The Ritual

Light the candle and make few deep inhales, relax and let your mind to focus, gaze on the symbol and start with following incantation.

"I, [your name here], a human, was created by the Primal Chaos and born to this limited world. My eyes were blinded, my ears went deaf, my tongue was cut and my skin lost the feeling. My mind was blinded with half truths and brainwashed by fanatics. My power was lost during millenniums of this existence. Now I am here to retrieve it back.
I sacrifice my eyes for the power, I sacrifice my ears for the truth, I sacrifice my tongue for the salvation, I sacrifice my life for the Chaos, come and welcome my soul back with open arms."

Extinguish the candle and close your eyes, keep silent for a moment, experience power of the moment.

"I see nothing but darkness, the darkness of my past life. I see nothing but suffering, the suffering of my heart. I see nothing but weakness, the weakness of my former existence.
Chaos, I invoke you into my body, come, return me power that was lost, open my eyes so they can really see, fix my ears so they can really hear, let my tongue grow in power of speech and fill my soul with the existence. Return me back on the path, full and complete."

Relight the candle.

"I breathe, I live, I can see and I can hear, I am back and I am complete. I am Love and I am Hate, I am Sorrow and I am Joy, I am Life and I am Death, I am Darkness and I am the Light. I am the Chaos for the Chaos flows in my veins and fills my heart. I am Savior and I am the Beast, I am demon of heavens and angel of Hell, my name is Primal Chaos and I am full, once again. I am everything that was, that is and that will be."

Experimentation with Okirot

Yesterday I ordered Okirot to bring me visions about future. Some visions arrived but without much sense.
After falling asleep I had a dream where someone was asking me what his food is missing... It was the smell.

Today I opened newspaper and read that our famous chef doesn't believe in future of our traditional kitchen. The food he was talking about was the one from my dream...
Well, Mr Chef, learn how to cook it properly, then it will improve :-D.

Okirot needs some more practice before I release him for public use.