Akenu's Initiation

First of all, I shouldn't speak too much about it, so let me see how cryptic I can get... I think I have already forgotten how many bad "qualities" I have. My black mirror is nearly finished, most negative stuff is sorted in elemental columns and now I am going for the 3 column separation for each element. I also do the physical exercises mentioned in IIH step I on regular basis and my body already feels much better, it seems that now I am able to regulate my body temperature more easily.

Yesterday I had to omit the ritual as I was becoming too tired. Anyway, I think that Lugalanna has already shown me my True Will. I have done some re-checking and found out there are abilities I have lost. For example I am no longer able to make myself hear the sound of a bell without seeing the bell in my mind's eye. Considering the amount of stuff I lost I restarted my practice with Initiation Into Hermetics (so I am at the step I, now). Also, I finally made some time and changed the payment settings for my books, so all of my books are completely free now (including Magickal Curriculum AND Astro Magick Essentials).

People on the internet usually don't believe me that Quintscher was actually Bardon's teacher instead of his student, even when I am Czech so I got a bit better access to this information. Fortunately I have found this: http://www.chaosmatrix.org/library/chaos/texts/letter1.html It's from my favorite occult author, Frater U.D. Now, it doesn't mean that IIH is bad, IIH is a great system, it's just not from Bardon's head.