Akenu's Initiation

 The final day of the Fire element is behind me. Today I have used the symbol of Agni for trataka multiple times during the day, and yet again, only the final trataka has shown the symbol as orange. And once again, it seemed that my body thermoregulates better when the Fire element is within. Heat seems natural, and cold just brushes off my skin. Let's hope that working with the Air element will be as illuminating. For the next week, the tattva of Air (Vayu):

Today it once again seemed that holding the fire element within makes my thermoregulation better than usual.  Other than that, today I broke the habit of doing only the exercises related to the project. I had to mow the lawn and couldn't help but pass the time by chanting the Kalachakra mantra.

 It seems the Fire element has become casual to me. I feel normal with the accumulated element. However, once I release the element, or even banish it with the Gnostic Pentagram Ritual, it seems I get hotter; it looks like my thermoregulation works better with Agni than without. And, as always, the tattva seemed to glow orange during the evening trataka session, but not during the morning one.

 Day 3 was quite uneventful. On Day 4, while trying to visualize the elemental pentagrams as red, they appeared orange for some reason; I couldn't really control the color myself. During the day, while I was accumulating the fire element, it dawned on me. I could accumulate the fire element in the morning right after the Gnostic pentagram ritual and practice the release right before the evening ritual. It's not ok I came up with this mid-week, but from tomorrow on, I will do it this way. Other than that, the fire tattva still glows orange for me even while it is red, but only during the evening trataka, not during the morning gaze.

 The chippiness faded. Anyway, two interesting things happened today. Thing number one: Whenever I visualized the tattva, I got a feeling of warmth. Thing number 2: During my evening trataka session, as I gazed at the tattva, it started changing, morphing between red and orange colors. The following afterimage also seemed to be pulsating.

 The first day was kinda uneventful. Despite a slight boost in confidence, I also got a bit chippy. One interesting thing happened during my evening travel from the office. In the hot train with a broken AC, it seemed I handled the heat a bit better than the rest of the passengers. Still, today made it painfully obvious I haven't worked with elements in a while; hopefully, one week will be enough for each element.

 I've devised the following plan for the elemental working: Each week I will focus on a single element, in the following order: Fire Air Water Earth Akasha I've chosen this particular order as: Air naturally divides Fire and Water; Earth is the encompassing element of all three, and Akasha is the final element: the source of the other 4. My devised plan for the practice: Gnostic pentagram ritual with the elemental pentagram of the week (invocation in the morning, banishing during the evening) Trataka with the tattva of the element of the week Accumulation and release of the element Visualization of the tattva whenever the time permits So, on Monday I will start with the first element in the cycle: Fire. This is the tattva I will use for trataka and visualization:

In the first grade we have learned how to perceive elements, now I am going to show you how to actually accumulate them in your body without causing major imbalances resulting in stress, depression or sickness. Originally you were supposed to gather each element and then to let all of it go, that was supposed to teach you how to feel elements and how to maintain your original balance. Now we are about to learn how to keep elements in the body while keeping the elemental balance, therefore strenghtening your energetic body. Be relaxed First of all we should relax our body and our mind, there were already some relaxation and calming exercises in the first grade, so you can use those. Imagine your body is hollow Similar to the mastery of elements body, before we can gather elements we have to make some "space" for them. Just imagine AND feel your body being hollow. One by one Now we should start accumulating elements. The process is that you visualize and feel the qualiti...